I’m still here.
We’re still here.
We’re doing ok.
There have been many changes and a new journey has begun.
Not really ready to talk yet. But it’s good. Hope you’re good too.
Oh! I lost 40 pounds!
So, today is my birthday.
I admit, being the first birthday in a couple of decades that I am unemployed is rough. I don’t like not working. I’ve discovered that. I also have focus in what direction I want to go. So I am pursuing it. Wish me luck. Continue reading
So. It was a day.
A weird day.
So many friends, some I haven’t seen in years, sent lovely words of encouragement and comfort. I am truly thankful for that.
You go back and forth between level-headed hope and all-out panic. I sure hope I am hired soon because I have some hysterical stories about the past few days.
Anyway, I do have one apology to make. To my wife Stephanie.
I have a terrible habit of putting everything on my shoulders. I am letting the family down. I am going to lose our home. I am going to disappoint V, Ad infinitum.
I get so caught up in trying to be selfless for the family that I become selfish in my thinking. Even before this I would often refer to V as “My girl” or talk like it’s just her and me.
Today I got a bit of a talking to about my selfless self-centeredness. She’s right, I don’t have to assume everything rides on me. That every move I make will make or destroy the family. That it’s up to me to get through this like they are helpless trinkets waiting for me. We’re a family, we’ll get through it somehow, together.
Stephanie is an amazing woman. She is and has been my best friend. I think I depend on her more than V does. She’ll listen to me, support me and tell me when I’m being an idiot or a nut. We’re a team. Always have been and always will be. There is no I here.
We are a family.
We will get through this.
I love you Steph.
Yesterday – January 6th – was Danny Thomas’ birthday.
Now, it’s obvious that his greatest achievement was St. Jude’s Hospital. A wonderful organization established by the entertainer for the research and treatment of catastrophic diseases in children. Since the late 1950′s St Jude’s has done just that for millions of children all over the world. Bless him for it.
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So, can you recommend any good board games 5+?
V has recently discovered board and card games and due to the weather we spent a lot of time playing them. I cherish every moment with my girl, [girls actually, but let's save the amazing blessing that is my wife for later] good and not-so-good, for as fun as the good moments are the not-so-good offer teachable moments for both of us. Every night I review my day and two of the questions I ask my self are “Was I the best Dad I could be today? How can I be a better Dad tomorrow?” It’s the moments of not listening, or openly defying or running towards you and your computer with a full cup of water in her hands…that help answer those questions. Continue reading
It snowed last night.
Not much but enough to get V all excited when she and Mommy got home. So out we went to play. We had a blast! It was very cold and the snow was fluffy so it packed nicely into snow balls that we could throw in the air and hear splat when they hit the driveway. We did that so we could continue our sliding game all over the driveway. Can’t slide on the road because of the gravel, but the driveway works great. Continue reading
My favorite memory of New Year’s eve comes from my childhood. There was a period where the local TV station WDCA TV20 in Washington DC ran a Marx Brothers marathon from 5pm on the 31st to 3am or so new year’s day. My brother and I would hide in my parents bedroom and watch it on the little television while the adults partied downstairs.
So, one of my geek quirks is a love of classic radio programs, usually referred to as Old Time Radio (OTR.)
I happen to own every available episode of The Jack Benny Show made between 1932 and 1957. I listen constantly to all kinds of shows from comedies to old detective shows to mysteries. I love them and will go over more of them in future posts. I love the ‘theater of the mind’ that radio productions invoke. I love the humor of many of the old shows. I love audio production in general (hence my affection for podcasts) and these shows were the pinnacle in effort for audio entertainment. I enjoy seeing some of that come back today with the rise of online media such as podcasts. Yes, I love doing video, but there is something about both the convenience and imagination of audio that still excites me.
I have been blessed in this life with more than I deserve and the only present I ask for myself is to be a better husband to Stephanie, a better dad for V, a better friend to everyone and a better man every day in the next year.
Love to all of you.
Worry is stupid.
It helps nothing, solves no problems and clouds the mind.
You’d think it would be easy not to do it.